Forum - Hey Shadow Light Master
Or should I say Surly Loser Man i wish my dad was part of the taliban so I could strap a bomb to myself
0 | If you're going to bitch on CE about your stupid problems, at least bitch about something people want to hear about. Perhaps tell them about your dick the size of CrossDragon's. |
Dec 27 @ 05:40  |
0 | I will be glad to remember you by such lines as "I'm starving myself to death. Goodbye." "I am not worthy of living for." "You know, what's more sad though is that this is all probably just an attempt for me to get attention. I'll probably ***** out and be unable to go through with it around the second day. I just want my parents to get me medicated already. I have clinical depression and they refuse to put me on drugs. I wanted to reorganize and revamp my room so I could restart my life but my mom refused that too because she said it was too much of a hassle. I had so many plans this winter break... I was supposed to study politics, economy, religion, get better at guitar, and get physically fit. But now that's all fallen apart because I haven't been able to redo my room. It was supposed to be my new starting point. Once it was emptied, it was supposed to allow me to start everything over again. But now that's not happening. I'm so weak that I'd probably not be able to fulfill my goal anyway." "Hmm, I guess I'll try that. I do have my closet right here. I'd probably suffocate though. Plus, I'd be too afraid of the dark." "Religion can't kill a man. Men kill men. That's like saying a pencil makes mistakes." "If I call 911 or get checked into a hospital my chances of becoming a politician are pretty much screwed, aren't they?" "Yeah, I recently turned 17" "Academics is definitely one of them. I used to be a straight A student in middle school but when I went to high school and enrolled in the IB program everything changed. I started getting Bs and even a C rarely. My dad wanted me to become a doctor like him since as far back as I can remember. Since I was a child. He said it's the only lifestyle I can take if I want to give myself and my family the same life he gave me. He always talked down being a lawyer and everything else I was interested in, or says I could only do it if I became a doctor first. I ****ing hate medicine. I think it's boring as ****." "My sister hates me. She's said she hates me ever since I we were children, repeated it to me for weeks, then as she grew older would describe how, in detail, she would want to kill me. She despises me with a passion. I failed her as a brother. I was too weak to be socially fluent, instead taking the life of the derelict gamer and Internet addict, with a hyperactive personality that came out obnoxiously with the lack of social tendencies I never picked up while locked in my room." "Because I chose to be a gamer and an Internet addict, I lacked the qualities of a normal person. I was isolated in elementary from others socially from the get-go. I was weird, only had one true friend, and we had nothing in common. It's been an obstacle even to this day I try to surmount, to be honest. It's nowhere near as drastic, but it's painfully obvious that I'm far different from those around me, and not always for the better." pfft at least you have a normal fetish. But please, continue with your feelings. "I tried to become the ultimate Muslim defender. The perfect apologist. Anything I could to justify my way of life, all while studying why other people chose theirs. Why everyone around me was Catholic. Why on the Internet everyone was atheist. The truth behind homosexuality. Why some people are Democrats, some are Republicans. I started trying to study everything on such grand topics that I've driven myself to this point." "But now I don't see that happening. It's impossible. I've lost faith in myself, I cannot picture myself as an adult, in college, or doing anything. It's all a blank, my life will be reduced to an anecdote told by my friends when they're grown to their children of the interesting man and good friend who committed suicide. No future, no future, no future." "As I lay here dying let me all tell you a story." *topic started 32 minutes ago* |
Dec 27 @ 05:50 |
0 | [QUOTE USER="gameboy" TIME="1261893054"]my life will be reduced to an anecdote told by my friends when they're grown to their children of the interesting man and good friend who committed suicide.[/QUOTE] I lol'd >_> Is that bad? |
Dec 28 @ 06:53  |
0 | [quote]<Feraligatr> http://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/genmessage.php?board=400&topic=52815542 <Feraligatr> ugh <Feraligatr> slm <Feraligatr> IF YOU DON'T HAVE A GFAQS ACCOUNT AND CAN'T SEE WHAT THAT SAYS <Feraligatr> title: I'm starving myself to death. Goodbye. <Feraligatr> Shadow Light Master (tc) <Feraligatr> Posted 12/27/2009 12:18:06 AM <Feraligatr> message detail <Feraligatr> filter | quote <Feraligatr> #001 I'm going to make these my last few days alive. My reasons are summarized here. <Feraligatr> 1) I am not adequate. Not for anybody. My sister, parents, or friends. <Feraligatr> 2) I am incapable of fulfilling my dreams or doing anything else, I can never be a politician. <Feraligatr> 3) As much as I'd like to believe in God, I can't see any evidence. <Novkris> lmao <Feraligatr> I think my post is great <Feraligatr> Earth_Feraligat <Feraligatr> Posted 12/27/2009 4:56:09 AM <Feraligatr> message detail <Feraligatr> delete | filter | quote <Feraligatr> #118 waaaaaah I'm a 14 year old <Feraligatr> Notice 118th post <Novkris> is he really 14 <Novkris> i forget already <Feraligatr> yeah I think so <Feraligatr> You know, what's more sad though is that this is all probably just an attempt for me to get attention. I'll probably ***** out and be unable to go through with it around the second day. I just want my parents to get me medicated already. I have clinical depression and they refuse to put me on drugs. I wanted to reorganize and revamp my room so I could restart my life but my mom refused that too because she said it was too much of a hassle. <Feraligatr> I had so many plans this winter break... I was supposed to study politics, economy, religion, get better at guitar, and get physically fit. But now that's all fallen apart because I haven't been able to redo my room. It was supposed to be my new starting point. Once it was emptied, it was supposed to allow me to start everything over again. <Feraligatr> But now that's not happening. I'm so weak that I'd probably not be able to fulfill my goal anyway. <Feraligatr> well what the hell does he do then? spend all day on ce <Novkris> i had so many plans this winter break too <Feraligatr> My plans were to go to my dad's house, sit on a couch all day and play xbox <Feraligatr> I am fulfilling them as we speak <Novkris> my plans were to watch animu, read VNs and play games <Novkris> i havent seen any animu yet <Feraligatr> NO Novkris <Feraligatr> PLEASE <Feraligatr> DON'T KILL YOURSELF <Feraligatr> BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T DO IT <Feraligatr> PLEASE I BEG YOU <Feraligatr> YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR <Novkris> i might starve myself <Novkris> everyone thinks im this amazing NEET that never goes outside <Feraligatr> "I used to be a theist and an evolutionist as well. I did not see conflict either. But now I'm just having problems with religion as a whole." <Novkris> and i dont but i dont do NEET stuff <Novkris> also i love contradictory thoughts <Feraligatr> ...he is like five he couldn't have spent more than five minutes reading up on beliefs <Novkris> link him to a page on nietzsche's work <Feraligatr> Shadow Light Master (tc) <Feraligatr> Posted 12/27/2009 1:07:52 AM <Feraligatr> message detail <Feraligatr> filter | quote <Feraligatr> #066 Yeah, I recently turned 17 <Novkris> "equality is unequal" <Novkris> oh nietzsche you card <Feraligatr> "If I call 911 or get checked into a hospital my chances of becoming a politician are pretty much screwed, aren't they?" <Feraligatr> meh like anyone would vote for him anyway <Feraligatr> "Academics is definitely one of them. I used to be a straight A student in middle school but when I went to high school and enrolled in the IB program everything changed. I started getting Bs and even a C rarely." <Feraligatr> OH NO <Feraligatr> GOD FORBID <Feraligatr> YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO TRY (SOMETIMES) IN HIGHSCHOOL <Novkris> ... <Novkris> he's depressed over grades? <Novkris> what is he a faggot <Feraligatr> "My sister hates me. She's said she hates me ever since I we were children, repeated it to me for weeks, then as she grew older would describe how, in detail, she would want to kill me. She despises me with a passion. I failed her as a brother. I was too weak to be socially fluent, instead taking the life of the derelict gamer and Internet addict, with a hyperactive personality that came out obnoxiously with the lack of social tendencies I never picked up while locked in my room." <Feraligatr> lol <Novkris> god forbid your sister doesnt want to suck your cock <Feraligatr> "I suppose you could say it was because as a child my dad was a single parent, worked his ass off to provide the best for his family," <Feraligatr> that's already better than my mom! <Feraligatr> "Because I chose to be a gamer and an Internet addict, I lacked the qualities of a normal person. I was isolated in elementary from others socially from the get-go. I was weird, only had one true friend, and we had nothing in common. It's been an obstacle even to this day I try to surmount, to be honest. It's nowhere near as drastic, but it's painfully obvious that I'm far different from those around me, and not always for the better." <Feraligatr> pfft blaming being a gamer for your problems <Feraligatr> you were never good at pokemon anyway, slm <Feraligatr> You could even say it's lead to existential crisis. My therapist told me I'm looking for answers to questions that have none. My hobbies include drawing, listening to and playing music, writing stories, playing videogames, and browsing the Internet. Yeah, typical liberal arts and whatnot. But also very important are my hobbies of studying religion and politics. I was brought up in a Muslim household. My parents are Pakistani. Although my dad did hire some people to come and teach me to read the Quran, that was pretty much it. I could read it. I never understood. So with the Internet and my mind, I made it my goal. My duty to become informed. In that to this day I consider myself a Muslim, I should say that I am a survivor in that I did not lose my religion. <Feraligatr> In other words he browsed CE all day and whatever they said he believed <Feraligatr> "I tried to become the ultimate Muslim defender. The perfect apologist. Anything I could to justify my way of life, all while studying why other people chose theirs. Why everyone around me was Catholic. Why on the Internet everyone was atheist. The truth behind homosexuality. Why some people are Democrats, some are Republicans. I started trying to study everything on such grand topics that I've driven myself to this point. <Feraligatr> ... <Feraligatr> That's the retarded kind of critical thinking <Novkris> OH NO <Novkris> IM TOO SMART <Novkris> BAWWW <Feraligatr> "Why some people are Democrats, some are Republicans." <Feraligatr> BECAUSE THEY HAVE DIFFERENT IDEALS <Feraligatr> CASE CLOSED <Feraligatr> NO SUPREME ANSWER FROM GOD NEEDED <Feraligatr> As a child, and even as a teenager, and perhaps even just a while ago I had grandiose dreams. Become a doctor, secure financial security. Become a lawyer to have a foundation for becoming a politician. If politics fails, doesn't matter, medicine is safety net. <Feraligatr> If politics fails, doesn't matter, medicine is safety net. <Feraligatr> Pfft, you aren't going anywhere with C's <Feraligatr> Once I'm accomplished, I can go back, become a theologian ,and spend the rest of my life with the girl I love, who I'd find someday, and play videogames, do art, write stories, and all that other good stuff my liberal bleeding heart would love to do. <Feraligatr> I remember when I thought life worked that way too :D <Feraligatr> "But now I don't see that happening. It's impossible. I've lost faith in myself, I cannot picture myself as an adult, in college, or doing anything. It's all a blank, my life will be reduced to an anecdote told by my friends when they're grown to their children of the interesting man and good friend who committed suicide. No future, no future, no future." <Feraligatr> I remember when I stopped caring about how the world worked too :D <Feraligatr> Hmm <!ness> what a whiny little bitch[/quote] |
Dec 29 @ 16:23 |
0 | This is really dumb. From what I read, depression from...nothing and depression gets worse because he can't rearrange his room? So he wants to die now? Okay, I know depression isn't anything to joke about, but at least have a legitimate reason for it. He wants to take his own life. A friend of mine who was his age was killed by a drunk driver (hit and run). It is just, ugh, don't take your life over something stupid. Lol, family problems. Siblings are like that. My sister says she hated my attitude ever since I was 13. Think I give a fuck? NO! In a way, this is a lol. But it also irritates me because a life should not be wasted. BY THE WAY. I did a little research for one of my college research papers. Internet addiction does lead to depression. I wish I would've seen this topic sooner. Would've solidified my paper perfectly. Man...that's completely amoral, but fuck it. An A is an A. |
Jan 01 @ 09:17  |
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