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into my mind
2 | np: Machine Head - Aesthetics of Hate [embed]<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Ylmfpz0ZkKs&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Ylmfpz0ZkKs&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>[/embed] Hey, guys, it's me, Ruesap. You know, everyone's favorite admin. Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. I really dislike the night. Right now the sun has just set, and I'm sitting here in a room alone in front of this computer. Everything seems so quiet, cold, and unfriendly. The song I'm listening to doesn't help my mood at all. Awake is really a wonderful album. Admittedly I'm a Dream Theater fanboy, but this is one of the best albums I've ever listened to. I could drag on and on explaining how much I like this album, but I'll save that for another day. The concept of being "awake" makes me think about religion a lot, too. I don't consider myself a religious person, only a simple agnostic, but recently I've been re-thinking my life. I know, scientifically, the chance of something or someone being out there is slim, but should I believe or not? It wouldn't be the first time I've had faith in something I don't necessarily believe to be true, and religion gives one a sense of purpose. Maybe I should look into it. Everything suddenly got quiet as the song faded away. Now I'm sitting here listening to naught but the sounds of my fingers striking the keyboard. Have you ever, seriously, listened to the sound of nothing? Every time I sit in silence, there's always a dull or abrupt noise interrupting my concentration. Only a few times have I observed complete silence. I'm the type of person who enjoys the quiet; I never turn music up loud in the car, and movie theaters annoy me occasionally. But I have to draw the line between silence and *silence*, because the latter can be purely terrifying. As I type this, I still feel all of my emotions bottled up inside. But I don't want to type this any more, or else I'll subconsciously still be listening to the silence. It's almost painful. I'm a lot more mellow today, probably because it doesn't seem so quiet. Well, the song I'm listening to is angry anyway, but at least I'm not so reflective at the moment. Right now I'm sitting here, typing this, watching the Phillies play for the world series. I live an hour away from Philadelphia so I definitely would like to see a victory for this city. Plus, I've met Ryan Howard and Pat Burrell, and I can't say I've met a single Devil Ray. Or whatever they're called these days. |
Oct 21 @ 07:04  |
0 | There's a banner ad on this page right now that says "Are you religious?" and has an angel and the Devil on either side of a grimacing man. EDIT: Now it says, "Do you believe in God?" >_> |
Oct 20 @ 23:21  |
0 | strange, i was listening to Silent Scream by Slayer while reading this. edit: and now Dyers Eve (metallica) is on >_> |
Oct 21 @ 01:00  |
0 | wait...so it's a rant about how much you hate the sun and... that's about how far i read. |
Oct 21 @ 03:17  |
0 | [QUOTE USER="ruesap" TIME="1224572647"] Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. [/QUOTE] I can relate to this. Even back in second grade I was thinking how it was a story about me or something, and maybe it is just me. Even now, it's still a reacurring thought as I can only think from my own brain. I've been actually writing some stuff like this down too in a notebook, once I gather it together, I might post it too. |
Oct 21 @ 04:18  |
0 | [QUOTE USER="truthiness" TIME="1224562723"][QUOTE USER="ruesap" TIME="1224572647"] Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. [/QUOTE] I can relate to this. Even back in second grade I was thinking how it was a story about me or something, and maybe it is just me. [/QUOTE] Ditto |
Oct 21 @ 07:14  |
0 | I've always thought like this. I wonder what other people see, and if it's the same thing that I see. Maybe they are living in a totally different reality. Who knows? |
Oct 21 @ 22:38  |
0 | [QUOTE USER="ray" TIME="1224573277"][QUOTE USER="truthiness" TIME="1224562723"][QUOTE USER="ruesap" TIME="1224572647"] Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. [/QUOTE] I can relate to this. Even back in second grade I was thinking how it was a story about me or something, and maybe it is just me. [/QUOTE] Ditto [/QUOTE] my thoughts as well |
Oct 22 @ 20:18  |
0 | [QUOTE USER="flounder" TIME="1224706697"][QUOTE USER="ray" TIME="1224573277"][QUOTE USER="truthiness" TIME="1224562723"][QUOTE USER="ruesap" TIME="1224572647"] Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. [/QUOTE] I can relate to this. Even back in second grade I was thinking how it was a story about me or something, and maybe it is just me. [/QUOTE] Ditto [/QUOTE] my thoughts as well [/QUOTE] Weird, I always thought I was the only one who thought like this... But that's reaching back into the main idea there. Irony. In fact, I've been thinking this way more often lately. Thinking that I might just live in some alternate reality from everybody else, or my life is nothing but a dream, the entire thing. You all might be products of this dream, for all I know. |
Oct 23 @ 16:57  |
0 | [QUOTE USER="shadianvise" TIME="1224781058"][QUOTE USER="flounder" TIME="1224706697"][QUOTE USER="ray" TIME="1224573277"][QUOTE USER="truthiness" TIME="1224562723"][QUOTE USER="ruesap" TIME="1224572647"] Sometimes I wonder what my purpose in life is. Not too often, though, I'm not too reflective about things. But on occasion, I just start to think about the world and how it works. I must be feeling similarly to all of the rest of you; it just seems like I'm the only one in the world who is capable of reason and logical thought. I don't mean that in a condescending way, it's just interesting because, well, mine is the only life I've lived. I guess until I live in someone else's shoes for a while, I'll still feel like this. [/QUOTE] I can relate to this. Even back in second grade I was thinking how it was a story about me or something, and maybe it is just me. [/QUOTE] Ditto [/QUOTE] my thoughts as well [/QUOTE] Weird, I always thought I was the only one who thought like this... But that's reaching back into the main idea there. Irony. In fact, I've been thinking this way more often lately. Thinking that I might just live in some alternate reality from everybody else, or my life is nothing but a dream, the entire thing. You all might be products of this dream, for all I know.[/QUOTE] Same thoughts as me. Sometimes I wish I could know how the world works... Just for one second... (go for the wall of quotes >_>) |
Oct 24 @ 18:44  |
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